do you remember the first time you were ever dissatisfied with life on a fundamental / philosophical level? what was that like?
@ebrostcarletonI was 8 yrs old and I just decided that there was nothing in life worth living for. Nothing seemed to be of any value or significance. It was around this time that I also began to formulate ideas of insanity and lucidity (though I didn’t have the terms at the time at my disposal). I think that was what got to me the most, not the existential angst, but my inability to communicate it with anyone because I just didn’t have the words at my fingertips. I could see my life stretch out before me except I was detached from it. Haha I was a very strange 8 yr old, very brooding. I’m glad I got over that.
8 yr old me did not know what it meant to be kissed, or to be forgiven, or to be surrounded by people who love you unconditionally. She didn’t know what it meant to eat that perfect meal or to see the world. But honestly, it doesn’t matter if I never set foot on another continent or traveled. The only thing 8 yr old me needed to know was love.
Because to know love, is to know what it means to be a part of this world.
